Procrastination

I think I am addicted. I am really addicted that I could not get out of this since I was in middle school. I do this because it is really comfortable but it has really bad side effect. It is procrastination and I can’t stop myself from doing it. I do not remember when I started procrastinated. I think I never procrastinated in elementary school because there was never a single homework. Even if there was one, I think I never did them.
Anyway, my addiction to the procrastination started in middle school. Middle school is where everything begins for us students. Seriously, elementary school was a joke. All we did during the elementary school was learning how to wash hands, how to make friends, simple math and when the Independent day was. But in middle school, I actually started to make choices and had to work for that choice. In the beginning of the year, I got to actually sign up for classes that I want to take. Of course, there are some required classes but at least for electives, I could choose something. Also, in middle school, such things as “honors” class are there. It is a class that is much more difficult than that of the regular class. Having typical Asian parents, I was sort of forced to take challenging class.
It was those honors class which gave out tons of homework every day. At least back then, it felt a lot. I started on my homework as soon as I came back from the school for the first few weeks because my parents told me so. Plus, I felt like I had to do all my homework first in order for me to play comfortably. Then after few weeks, I got sick of school. I could not wait until the school to be over every day. Every minute of last five minutes of school felt like an hour. The eager to play sort of built in me as somewhat like a potential energy. Every minute I felt bored in the school added energy to my stress potential energy. The end of the school bell was only thing that could release the energy. As soon as the school bell rang, I stormed out of the class and got on the bus. In the bus, I was so excited; excited to get home and do whatever I wanted to do. As soon as I got home, I just threw my backpack on the floor, forgetting what I am supposed to do before anything else. I threw in a frozen from the fridge into the microwave and turned on my computer. After the microwave finished warming up my food, I grabbed it and sat in front of my computer. I ate my food as I played games on my computer. Hours passed by and it was few minutes before mom was supposed to come back from the work. It is then I actually started on my homework so my mom won’t see me playing on computer without ever finishing up my work.
That was pretty much the schedule for my middle school years. But I never had severe side effect of the procrastination until the high school. In high school not only there is tons of homework but there are projects and tests from seven different classes. I think I never started on my homework until like 10 pm every night. I slept at like 1 am and felt really tired every day during the school. That is probably the main reason why I slept in my first period class. Procrastinating homework is only has small, weak side effect. I just feel little tired the next day. Sometimes I just do not have any homework so I just sleep at 10pm. Tests are the killers. I never, literally never (until I came to college where I am trying to learn time management) started studying for the tests until the right before the test day. I know all of you can understand this, pulling off the all nighters. It is really painful. I usually go to sleep at 5am when I pulled all nighters and when I try to wake up in the morning for the school bus, it feels like crap. I cannot describe how I feel and what I go through to wake up from such a short sweet sleep. Somehow when I am taking the test, I do not feel any tiredness, I guess it is because of focus and nervousness. It is when test is over I go to sleep without my will. I just put my head on my desk and sleep. This goes same for projects, essay, etc. Procrastination always was part of my life.
I really cannot understand why I procrastinated so much; I mean it has so many side effects. But I never could start on my homework or study for the test on the day when I assigned to it. There are just so many things to do right after the school such as hanging out with friends. And I think that is the most major reason that I procrastinate, there are just too many things to do in the afternoon. But also another reason why I procrastinated so much is because of such a strict nature of middle school and high school. Securities ask for passes why you are in the hall way. You cannot be late or leave early from the classes unless the bells ring. Teachers also check your homework and give you assigned seats. That is why I got so much stress from since I go to school and I leave school. That is way as soon as I get out of school, I play and relax to relieve those stress. But in college, with so much more freedom and not strict environment, I do not procrastinate much. I do not need to. Even if I do, I cannot survive the academic requirement of the college. Procrastinate was a bitter-sweet thing to do in my life. I was so addicted to it but starting to get out of that addiction since I came to Virginia Tech. I think the time I don’t procrastinate anymore is the time I truly learn the time management and succeed in college.